Tuesday, 27 October 2009
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FUCK LIVING WHEN DYING IS TOO HARD. bitty bits of thinspo
For serious.
What a fucking joke my life is. Ive been on this low carb diet and my mom is losing oddles of weight but frumpy fatty me isnt losing any! Infact I feel fatter!
But my scale says I simply havent lost a pound. Im at 128.6. No more no less. Ever! Maybe its my period, but its so light :/
I need some fucking help, I cannot live like this.
Im fasting tomorrow on medifast shakes, not low carb but FUCK IT.
Ill kill my family to be skinny! Im seriouse! 6 years of this fattness and Im ready for it to be over.
Anyways, ill be blogging more now because Im sick of this eat whatever aslong as its not a carb bullshit.
I want to feel hunger. I need it. Im going insane without it!
And halloween is in 4 days. Atleast thats four pounds I can lose :/
I seriously need support right now!!
I want to look liek this:
But so far I just look like this:
Tuesday, 20 October 2009
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Hey girls sorry ive been MIA
For serious, this puppy and school work have stole my time from me.
In good news, I am 127.o lbs, not perfect but a pound less then my last weigh in so Im happy. I would be less but I was binging, then starving, binging, then starving over and over :/
Im now trying to do a low carb thing, its the one trick I havent pulled in all 6 of thesse years.
Wish me luck! :3
Stay strong starve on // SKINNY or GTFO!!
Wednesday, 14 October 2009
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diet lemonade
Intake:
Whole wheat english muffin 120
Venti coffee 100
Sante fe style ceasar salad 190
Tuna w/ lemon and peas 180
Random stuffs 58
Watermelon 100
Total: 748
For outtake I will run 2 miles and do leg and arm resistance training. I will also jump on my trampoline for 30 mins, with dog walks and sleep thats about 600 calories burned and only 148 left.
I went overboard on coffee cream today but I think Im over estimating.
Better safe than sorry.
Oh and this morning I weighed in at 130 lbs I know thats not right because I fit into the pants I wore wehn I was 115 and theyre loose. I must be bloated, then again I have repeatedly beaten my scale with a hammer so it might be misjudging.
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I dont want to jinx myself
but these past two days have been AWSOME!
Both days I have managed to eat only 560 calories. I dont want to jinx myself sop that is all I will say.
Tomorrow Im going to school for the first time in ages! Im pretty excited too! and even though they have yummy snacks, I know a girl who is literally 330 lbs! Shes reverse thinspo, when they hand out snacks ill look at her and remember that I want to dress cute, smell good, and be HAPPY. Ill so no thank you X10!!
Also heres a yummy tip: Black coffee with a pinch of kosher salt, take sof the bitter edge and makes it pretty good especially if you drop in a pack or two of splenda or something. thats 0 calories and hunger curbed, priceless.
Also I LOVE waldon farms, They have all 0 calorie jam, dressing, chocolate syrup etc etc! Go. Look. Order. Eat without guilt! :o www.waldenfarms.com
AND for my fashionista friends go to www.chictopia.com theres some awsome real girl thinspo because its a site about (what else?) Street fashion!! Girls upload their fashion photos of them in day to day life.
And at www.fashiontoast.com this girl Remy who lives in my town made Teen Vogue, shes a fashion blogger and includes pictures of herself in almost every post, shes gorgeous!
As you can see ive been hitting the web to pass time :p
I cant wait until Im teeny tiny likes these girls :/
Sunday, 11 October 2009
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you might think me strange
I love cabbage soup.
I love fruit.
Im on the cabbage soup diet! :D
Day 1: all the fruit and soup I want plus plenty of water!
I could get use to this :3
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- Name: Charlie Horsie
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 9/14/2009
